Bad Luck??

Thomas Jefferson once said

"I'm a great believer in luck and I find the harder I work,the more I have of it."

This quote is in line with yet another that says "A person is lucky when his preparation meets oppurtunity".

These quotes have reiterated the fact that "luck " persay does not exist.A person acheives something only due to meticulous hardwork and carefull planning.

Why am I talking about luck?Well recently I felt I was unlucky,things had gone against me .
Reflecting about it, I saw a pattern as to why I was in this kind of a fix.It was not bad luck or any other jargon of self pity.It was sheer procastination.There was a serious issue at hand to be attended to.I was doing bits and pieces of it.I did not use my discretion in trying to take a clear decision in what I was looking for.This continued for about a week and finally I land up in a kind of fix.Life is all about the choices you make..goes the adage..and here I was deserving every bit of what had happened.

For a month now,I will be sitting in the shopfloor of a top manufacturing company,while I had oppurtunities to enter a multinational bank or a fmcg.

Indolence...

Iam what you would call in Tamil parlance a"Vadi katiya somberi"( which means filtered ,concentrated lazyness).I hate being lazy.I continously strive to stope being lazy, but alas habits die hard.

Talking about personality,I took a MBTI test recently.The test is used to determine your personality type and give you a four lettered assessment .My type was ESTP.Extroverted,Sensing,Thinking and Perceiving .The perceving part is what irritates me.A "Perceiving "person is one who plans rarely ,who goes with the situation and who is not comfortable with schedules.The downsides of a perceiving person is that they get scatterbrained and tend to dvelve into enjoying or lazying around all the time.

There is continous conflict in my mind to shift from being a 50 %Perceiving person to a 100%Judging person(person who is better planned ,blah blah),but impediments are many.Firstly its the fact that Iam lazy .Secondly I seem to have lost all my will power in doing serious things.My will power in doing trivial things is absolutely brilliant.I can for example ,clean my room at 2.00 in the night.I can read a days news paper at 12.00 in the night ,when probably the next days paper is being printed.

Another scary aspect of being lazy is the fact that it is punishable according to Indian Philosophy.A tamasik person is compared to a buffalo which does nothing and lazes around.Basically a tamasik person doesnt perform his duties to the best of his abilities.The punishment however is maniflod.He is tortured or sent to hell or whatever.Reminds me of the punishment meted out to a lazy person in the movie "Anniyan".

Dad is convinced Iam lazy due to all the pampering I receive at home.But then something has to be done about it.Iam a student now, then an employee later, and probably a wife etc etc.I cant be the princess of my Dad forever.